3 posts tagged “friends”
my life at the moment is so strange that i can't differentiate my real life from dreams and i dream about going on fucking facebook so realistically that i think i'm participating in everyday menial tasks. and when i'm wake, so much strange shit keeps happening that i have to pinch myself.
my world is being toppled over by the internet. it's like i'm playing with fire and getting severely burned. people know people that should not know people and people keep contacting me as if we were ever friends and they tormented me in elementary school and et cetera. i can clearly see when people have lied to me due to the extensive documentation of lives via blogs, online picture albums, forwarded emails and facebook statuses. nothing is real and everything is hyper-real.
it's quite disturbing. i mean, yes, i've been documenting my life online for nearly a decade, but i've chosen to and i haven't really been able to see what other people are up to. now we've willingly subjected ourselves to an orwellian fate complete with insights into what we're thinking and feeling at any given moment and it's starting to freak me out. YES i know this is a personal choice which i've entered into, but i still feel as though it's taking over my life and stifling me. and there is always the option of deleting, but come on, this is a HUGE social movement. this is WEB 2.0, goddammit. but scary. scary.
what to do? this means so much for society, at least my society. it means that the entire way we relate to people has slightly changed. it means that my boss can see what my old high school friends think of me via their wall posts, it means that my carefully compartmentalized life is slowly fraying and blending into itself, it means that whoever wants to see my family vacation pictures can (if he really wants to), it means that people i've successfully banished to the outer limits of my memory have been making appearances in my thought processes.
i don't know, do i delete this thing that's taking up so much time throughout my day? it makes me want to move away again, seriously. to get away from all the complicated nuances of former lives.
oh god. the holidays. i've been running around more than ben johnson after a visit from a mexican drug mule. i'm so tired! tiiiired. and what's worse, i have a few moments to myself today and i FEEL like i shouldn't be just SITTING here. anyway, i'm too tired to write a lot about the last week, so here is a photo collage. enjoy.
i did it! well, we did it. joyce and i made the turkey!! i couldn't believe it. it turned out delicious and not dried out at all. my bro ryan did the carving and it was so nice to have our families/ adopted families around us to eat and drink with us. sometimes i feel like such a grownup, hosting dinners and making turkey and whatnot. it just seems so crazy.
people brought some amazing side dishes and desserts and wine was had along with champagne. nice! so good! it was a great precursor to the funtimes fancy holiday party we're having on the 15th. yay!
i will post a video of the turkey making later on when vanessa sends it to me.
